5/12/08
Life has been a roller coaster between us sometimes we are both so down and tried to get up and make each other survive. Each day you became part of my life, you are part of my whole system that had to stop, but why can't I no matter how i tried you are like a shadow behind me.
When you try to protect me and show you care i felt i was the one, when you hug me and kissed me i felt it deep inside that i try to fight. When i look at your face i ask myself why, why can't i?
Why can't you love me, though all my life i already given to you, even my last breathe i'm willing to give it to you but each time i heard you call her name, i get weak and fall on my knees.
I tried to act i wasn't hurt but deep inside i was shuttered. I tried to show that i'm happy, yes i'm indeed happy to be with you but the sadness was beyond those smile, when i think about that still never own you heart.
If only i could ask you what will be the secret answer to own your heart, but why can't i? I let each other pass by loving you, just loving you... what is missing for your to love me whole?
How many times i tried to escape from you but every time you look at me i was captured by you, why can't i?
The only reason i survive is hoping that one day i could find the real love that tell me i can.
Labels: Hurt