Silent Hopeful
It was an unexpected meeting after a long, long time of missing each other. I was staggered but I tried to hide it, I don’t want him to give a damn reason or an edge to be near again. Yet, feelings cannot lie no matter how you tried to conceal it; it’s like a floating feather in the air.
Afternoon and almost dark in a friends’ house he is there to celebrate too, can’t imagine that I will be seeing him around after a long period of absence in contiguous place like this. He was happy indeed when I saw him, never to mention that he tried to ignore my presence too, the way I did with him just a fancy hello to my friends and to a celebrant then I move ahead.
I tried to occupy my time without noticing that he was surreptitiously watching me from afar. Catching his every glance was like an electrifying bolt break through to my body down to my veins, and once reliving the feeling that once was dead. I didn’t like the feeling. I hate it. But I was susceptible every time, he was near.
Then my fear has come when at the top of my tipsier he sat beside me, and wraps his arms around me, looking at me like nothing was happened before, he smiled at me and said:
“How are you?” it’s like a lightning bolt that hits me, I just found myself looking at him too while sheepishly answered him:
“I’m fine.”
He got up and went to the kitchen tried to mingle to a bunch of celebrators outside the house. I stayed in my place thinking trying to figure out things about what happen just awhile ago, still in the midst of abysmal emotion, he awaken me again with his presence, and sit down beside me for the second time. Now with more intense reaction, he whispered the word I’d never expect he will uttered,
“Sorry for what I had done, I’ve changed now! I am not the same as before.”
Then, brusquely covered my eyes and kissed me. I was dumbfounded. I could not say a word, but took a deep breath and sighed. I didn’t even know if people around us witnessed what he has done. My world stop for a moment and could not even think but savor the taste of his kissed. It was very unusual he never did it in the entire days that we are together before we parted without goodbyes.
The night was covered of mystic moments, I had never known that I fell on my knees again, and trying to live in a flash like a fresh bloom flowers in the green fields. He was so sweet that night that he never been before in the days that we were together, indeed he changed. It’s confirmed. I could probably say he got my trust again. Until the sec that I found I am with him again with silent hopefuls it will bloom.
Things changed that we get closer to each other everyday. We had more intimate time than the usual ones before. You are more caring and sensitive to my moods. All of this feed my conviction that we are stepping to a more consequential relationship were I submit my self again to my silent hopeful that this is the beginning of a more sophisticated correlation holding on to my fate that somehow I will have his words to justify this feeling.
=broken pieces=
22/1/09
It was an unexpected meeting after a long, long time of missing each other. I was staggered but I tried to hide it, I don’t want him to give a damn reason or an edge to be near again. Yet, feelings cannot lie no matter how you tried to conceal it; it’s like a floating feather in the air.
Afternoon and almost dark in a friends’ house he is there to celebrate too, can’t imagine that I will be seeing him around after a long period of absence in contiguous place like this. He was happy indeed when I saw him, never to mention that he tried to ignore my presence too, the way I did with him just a fancy hello to my friends and to a celebrant then I move ahead.
I tried to occupy my time without noticing that he was surreptitiously watching me from afar. Catching his every glance was like an electrifying bolt break through to my body down to my veins, and once reliving the feeling that once was dead. I didn’t like the feeling. I hate it. But I was susceptible every time, he was near.
Then my fear has come when at the top of my tipsier he sat beside me, and wraps his arms around me, looking at me like nothing was happened before, he smiled at me and said:
“How are you?” it’s like a lightning bolt that hits me, I just found myself looking at him too while sheepishly answered him:
“I’m fine.”
He got up and went to the kitchen tried to mingle to a bunch of celebrators outside the house. I stayed in my place thinking trying to figure out things about what happen just awhile ago, still in the midst of abysmal emotion, he awaken me again with his presence, and sit down beside me for the second time. Now with more intense reaction, he whispered the word I’d never expect he will uttered,
“Sorry for what I had done, I’ve changed now! I am not the same as before.”
Then, brusquely covered my eyes and kissed me. I was dumbfounded. I could not say a word, but took a deep breath and sighed. I didn’t even know if people around us witnessed what he has done. My world stop for a moment and could not even think but savor the taste of his kissed. It was very unusual he never did it in the entire days that we are together before we parted without goodbyes.
The night was covered of mystic moments, I had never known that I fell on my knees again, and trying to live in a flash like a fresh bloom flowers in the green fields. He was so sweet that night that he never been before in the days that we were together, indeed he changed. It’s confirmed. I could probably say he got my trust again. Until the sec that I found I am with him again with silent hopefuls it will bloom.
Things changed that we get closer to each other everyday. We had more intimate time than the usual ones before. You are more caring and sensitive to my moods. All of this feed my conviction that we are stepping to a more consequential relationship were I submit my self again to my silent hopeful that this is the beginning of a more sophisticated correlation holding on to my fate that somehow I will have his words to justify this feeling.
=broken pieces=
22/1/09
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